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-inspired by Melissa Lozada Oliva

"a healthy body..."
a bitter laugh.
does a body really exist when it's not
being looked at?
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sad kid cries at the number on the scale.
sad kid was meant to get an appetite for Christmas but it got lost in the mail.
sad kid avoids mirrors or stares too hard.
sad kid forgets they have a body at all.
sad kid remembers when they realise it is not fully theirs.
sad kid but big smile.
sad kid but tears are hot sometimes yk.
sad kid but nobody's looking at their face.
sad kid scrutinized.
sad kid found lacking.
sad kid always a kid.
sad kid great ass haha.
sad kid internalizing.
sad kid becoming an adult.
sad adult asking themself where home is and not even being able to answer
when looking in the mirror.

-cgi.

Written for #escapril2020
Day 8: Hometown